As I write this, my room is in a state of disarray. My brother’s air mattress slowly deflates in the corner. My clothes are strewn around the room, a reminder of the folding, organizing, squishing I will have to do to fit everything into the one suitcase that hasn’t taken up residence in my rented storage unit.
Wow. A rather beautiful way of coming to this conclusion about grief. Happy for you to hear you are unraveling things within that seem to want to come to the light of day. I truly hope you are getting closer to whatever it is that you are searching. This last weekend I was able to listen to the voice of Alex Ebert during a sound experience festival at MONOM in Berlin. I think you would like some of his writings and revelations as well.
On that note, I leave you with one word to ponder on: belonging.
This do fall into place!